Tired of the same

As the title states, I am getting so tired of doing the same thing. I have ideas that are poking at the interior of my skull, trying to get out. Why can't I get my ass motivated and put some to work? Why is this hard? It shouldn't be hard. I want to do something, like that webcomic idea I had, but every time (the few times) I kick myself hard enough to go and get the pencil and paper... I flop. Inspiration abandons me on the spot, any skill goes out the window, and my imagination has a coma. And then this cycle repeats itself. I give up, inspiration creeps back, I go "omigod I'm gonna start something this time!" , I try, I flop.


It would figure, it seems my muse is an Anonymous /b/astard.

Meh.

I need to get my own place.

Then, THEN I can start in on this art stuff without feeling useless. Then maybe I can get that webcomic idea moving along past a brainstorm.

Idea? -for a story.

I'm not certain it's been done in the way and style I'm imagining it, but how many short stories have been done in the persona of an alien being analyzing humans, in the same style that humans analyze unknown species of animals?

I haven't read any thing like that personally (not even on 365 Tomorrows, but it may still be on there). The idea just jumped into my brain. A "mad scientist" scene where the scientist endeavors to reveal all the mystery about the unknown life-form in the cell. The scientist does not particularly care for the mental state of the specimen, only the physical, because the scientist does not realize the specimen has mental feelings and mental health that acts upon said specimen.

Imagine an older, grizzled, hard-working scientist who has spent his whole life working on the cure for cancer. He's determined to find it. He has many mice and rats to experiment on, and he keeps them physically healthy because their physical health can greatly alter any results. What if the mice and rats were completely free-thinking, like a human is or like in a Disney cartoon, but the scientist has absolutely no way of cataloging these mental states of mind. They are simply "understood" to not exist in the specimens. Now, instead of mice and rats, put regular human beings in that category. The scientist is still a scientist, but he does not look, think, speak, or understand anything like or about the specimen except for what he can physically measure and chart. The specimen's shouts and yells are just squeaking. He (the scientist) does not see crying, just watery eyes that are probably caused by the air being too dry, or a common irritant. He doesn't see humans caring for each other out of love, he sees pack mentality as an evolutionary measure to overcome the odds of nature, or specific mating rituals that help ensure the survival of their young. ... Kinda sounds like hell, don't it. I want to write this from the perspective of the "alien" scientist, I just don't want to be cryptomnesic and write something that's already been done.

Inspiration, you cruel unoriginal bitch.

It Strikes

Inspiration! Finally, my imagination is waking back up, and I'm coming up with more ideas, more plots, more characters...

Okay, not all of them have been "good" ideas, but since I've been through a "mental block desert" of much of my "usual" imagination, this is still a good thing.

Flood gates are opening, now I just need to get these ideas to text or paper before they fizzle out in my mind.

Updated?

Well, things have been too quiet here for too long, and I'm aching to write things again.

I think I'll start with background stories/profiles for my Role-Playing characters, again. Usually I do these things in my head, because once I put them down something changes, then there's second thoughts, then third thoughts, etc.

I really wish I had any artistic talent for realism sketching. I can see the images in my head, but my hands will not put it to paper. And when you're thinking up something original, that's creation-death right there. A picture is worth over a thousand words, after all is said and done.

The coming months will see if this plan some to fruition or not; if I'm not working, then I'm usually sleeping, getting ready for work, or playing DCU Online (A.K.A. my latest drug of choice). I can't believe I was having such DC-nic-fits during the downtime between playing Beta and playing Live. Sony dug their claws in deep with me, that's for sure; and like most online games I really enjoy from the start, I'm praying the creators don't screw it up. Sony almost "ruined" Star Wars Galaxies, and they've made a (failing?) WoW cookie-cutter MMORPG before, and some of their business practices aren't (shall we say?) user friendly. I really want to give this game all my "gamer's hope," but I always think back to Warhammer Online (WAR not 40k), and how EA knee'd Mythic in the gut and basically sank the game at the aft instead of the stern. (It's still a fun game to play.. for about 3/4 of the leveling process, then it loses a lot of it's fun and grinds harder than Superman hand-milling all the grain for Ethiopia.) Gamer "politics" made a huge dent in that game's enjoyability, as they normally do with most MMORPG's.

Anyways, before I ramble on too terribly much... Watch this space, because maybe, coming soon-ish, possibly, there might be something maybe good.